Up ahead, at the very limit of the car’s headlights, the highway split, the right hand road curving away in the town’s general direction. Just lie back and let me do everything.”
Slipping down between your legs, I spread your thighs a little further apart with my hands, to give myself room to reach your vulva. I hate writing this bloody diary, but I promised Mam I would. I wonder what they want her for, but I’m aware that I’ll never know. The light was too dim to see who or what that was, but I suddenly knew very well that I didn’t want to see it close up. I don’t know, I said, but I know one thing. First, to Da, to tell him I’m going away and he can bring his dolly bird here whenever he wants because I won’t be back, not ever. Do you want that? “I’m sorry…” you whisper. “Where do you want to go?”
My mind flashed back briefly to the map I’d looked at on my phone last night, and picked – at random – a tiny dot I’d seen on it, far to the north, and only noticed it due to the name. “Countess? You must be mistaking me for someone else.”
“No I’m not,” he replied. Instinctively – I’d been catching rides for so long – I stuck out my
