He slapped my scrotum, and the pain made me collapse on the floor. Amateur porn I’m gay. But, I never said I didn’t want that to happen. I’m 28 years old now. This is a man who I grew to eventually loathe and hate. But, I never said I didn’t want that to happen. I’m surprised I didn’t rub it raw. In hindsight, he gave me exactly what my penis wanted – a long term, harsh beating. It was a horribly degrading experience. So I had moved into the city with a reasonable job that covered the bills. I always wanted to see another guy’s penis. This is a man who I grew to eventually loathe and hate. I guess because for that time in my life, my mind didn’t control it’s decisions – my mind let my penis and my sex drive do that. I was trying to find situations where I could shack up with a guy and do things for him in exchange for a bed. I fell into a depression at that point. At the time, I didn’t know I was gay. Things that happened in that time period do turn me on…it betrays my mind, but the feeling is just so good. At the time, I didn’t know I was gay. I wasted my time jerking off, rather than
