The most wondrous feelings come with feeling teased and “tortured”. Things didn’t seem any different, but then my cock remained soft. It makes me sad to recognize that I will probably never be able to fuck another woman as I used to take for granted. I try and do my best. I love giving and receiving oral sex. Feeling turned on doesn’t mean (anymore) that my cock is hard or hardening. Twenty-one years ago my world was upended. I do desire the sexiness of my partner. Over time it became less and less effective. Things didn’t seem any different, but then my cock remained soft. I may sense that there is a little firmness, and there is none, whatsoever. It remains bizarre to feel disconnected from my cock, unless it is being touched by me or my partner. It isn’t easy, but it can be rewarding much of the time. I still had some erections, but it was getting more and more difficult to have intercourse and it became less and less frequent.
