The number of diseases and of ill people was remarkable. About lunch time, not being able to endure the tension anymore, I went to a public library and asked for everything they had about Lourdes. It is also true that everywhere we went, she was immediately surrounded by handsome men who tried hard to win her attention. Even if I were the one to die. The second day, the thought about Lourdes followed me everywhere I went. With money, it seems easy to accomplish anything. If an hour passed without my making the payment, the number of visitors to the web page would suddenly diminish—and consequently, the number of Diana’s worshipers. Only now I don’t have to depend on you. “You know what they say: a beautiful woman brings trouble into the house…”
I waved my hand carelessly. I fell asleep with this thought in mind… Tens of thousands of believers. She was mine! ***
My goddess disappeared into nowhere, and sometimes, in the long nights when I wait for the sleeping pills to act, I wonder whether the entire memory was nothing but a mere extension of my old nightmares… He was definitely not like me. I was envied and pitied at the same time, because I, with my ordinary looks, do not give the impression that could attract her.
