Once I fully understood that he was being paid by them to have sex with me my self esteem plummeted. I think that was the first time I really noticed and learned the scent of a man. It was just so hard for me mentally to put my mouth on the part of his body I had seen pee and cum. I am not sure if it is true, but Don will swear it is, he says that the very first time he touched the private place between my legs, that I tensed and looked at him. However, it is hard to explain how for so many years he was the center of my universe. It was early in the summer that we moved to the trailer park and that was the first year that I didn’t spend the whole summer in day care. So as a little girl I guess I was an easy target. I know I never took an exam or wrote a paper. I find it very difficult to express to you my discomfort with receiving oral.
