I returned to that land they called Vietnam a changed person. I no longer had any dreams or hopes for a future. I never got to hold our unborn daughter Melissa as well. I do this not because I want you to feel my anguish, the pain, the hurt someone or I face in my story. Carrie would not let me give up on myself or on us. Carrie looked to me with sadness in her lovely blue eyes as she said, “If you gave up on hope then you have given up on us as well, John.” “Goodbye John, I am leaving and you will never see me again,” Carrie added as she started out of the hospital room. I chambered a round before I shoved the barrel into my mouth. J. Thoughts like those were dangerous for one during war as I found out the hard way. In doing so, you may find that you even understand yourself a little better. I never read any of them until I was on my way home from my first tour. His reasoning to me was as follow:
“I can not speak evil against one like myself, a army ranger, for we are brothers.
