Anna now knows this has to be the reason it happens, and why she never remembers anything straight away. After he left Anna had a sudden irrepressible urge and quickly changed her clothes, almost as if she was watching someone else dress she put on a bra and panties set that he’d jokingly bought her, sheer black silk with red stitching, the joke was that it was a nipple and crotchless set that she’d told him she’d wear over her dead body. Now sitting in the hotel room Anna knew something like it had happened again, crying she went to the bathroom and showered, washing and washing as if to remove all memory of the feel from her body, afterwards finding some clean clothes in her bag she dressed quickly dropping the ruined dress in the bin and throwing the book in after it vowing never to keep it again, leaving the hotel Anna went home and found no one home. Not seeing anything she placed it back on the shelf and went down to pay for her other selections. Walking back into the living room a few minutes later the guys stopped talking as she stood in the middle of the room, ‘I’ve told them what you said’ was all her boyfriend said to the look Anna gave him, without saying
